It was a lot simpler, didn’t it? The times the place we have been all in the identical place. The occasions we took as a right, again once we by no means imagined we’d spend extra time aside than collectively. We might have realistically identified that issues would change, however that felt so far-off. Prefer it might by no means actually occur to us.
Till it did. Till we grew aside. Till the moments we spent by one another’s facet grew much less and fewer.
The reality is, typically life will get somewhat hectic. Generally priorities change. You assume you’ll be prepared for it, and even the idealistic a part of you thinks your experiences will shift concurrently. As youngsters, you keep in mind planning weddings collectively, ensuring you’ve gotten youngsters on the identical time. However life doesn’t work that approach. Possibly they meet the love of their life when you’re nonetheless looking out. Maybe you simply grabbed your dream job, and so they’ve simply had their first child. Possibly you lastly settled down, and so they’ve moved throughout the nation.
Generally issues are so simple as “If folks take care of you, they are going to make time” and typically it’s so simple as “I’m just one human being with a lot to do, and I can’t do every thing I desperately need to do.”
Once we began rising aside, I might really feel it. I didn’t need to. I needed to consider that so long as we existed, we might all the time make room for one another. The unhappy reality is which you could strive, however that isn’t all the time as simple as folks make it sound. Life appears to come back at you quick as if you happen to blink and your entire world is totally different. It’s not as simple to work round schedules because it was. You do your finest to open up area, after which issues occur no cash, illness, unexpected circumstances, and even simply the burden of being a human who can’t do every thing directly.
There are days the place I ponder if we nonetheless matter to one another as a lot as we used to. That as a result of we don’t have as a lot time or area, does this imply what we had was one thing youthful and fleeting- one thing that was solely liked as a result of it was proper in entrance of our faces?
Regardless of every thing I may be feeling, please know this: even when I haven’t seen you shortly, I consider you on a regular basis.
I keep in mind our late evening dinner runs, our television marathons on somebody’s sofa. I keep in mind laughing so arduous about silly boys or crying over them. I keep in mind cheering you on throughout your large moments, and holding your hand while you wanted it. I keep in mind you giving me your shoulder and encouragement once I was falling aside. I keep in mind the guarantees we made to spend by one another’s sides and the joy for one another with each new milestone we achieved. I keep in mind who we have been again then and the unbelievable folks we turned during the last a number of years. I do not forget that even once I felt unlovable, you confirmed me that wasn’t the case.
I keep in mind all of it, and I take into consideration you on a regular basis, even when it appears like I don’t today.
I hope we do see one another once more quickly. I need to present you the individual I’m changing into. To point out you the way I’ve grown and grow to be an excellent higher model of myself, even if you happen to couldn’t all the time be there each second to see it. I don’t know who I’d be with out you. I hope I by no means have to search out out.
If I do, please know you’re the rationale I do know what real friendship is. You’re the rationale I do know what love seems like, and why I nonetheless consider in myself even once I don’t all the time need to. You’re why I don’t accept buddies who deal with me as disposable. You’re why I’ll nonetheless snort insanely arduous when our reminiscences pop up on my newsfeed, why a random track will take me again to these days we didn’t recognize sufficient.
You’re the rationale for a lot, and I’ll nonetheless take into consideration you for the remainder of my life.
Even when I don’t get to see you as a lot as I need to.